Monday's-
Moments I cherish...and...Moments that helped me grow (As I believe all challenges and trials in life help us to grow...even if we would rather not have faced them.)
So let's start this off with the moment I cherish, hopefully I am not repeating myself...and on this one I know I am not. L.J. turned 12 this past week, and was ordained with the Aaronic Priesthood this past Sunday. However, this wasn't an easy path for him and us...more on that later on. But my cherished moment came the Sunday before as first he was given the go ahead from the Bishop to receive the priesthood, and then a moment so incredibly rare it is priceless came at the end of sacrament meeting. We were singing "I Know that My Redeemer Lives" for the closing song and on the last verse L.J. joined in with me singing it. Now you have to know that he has never sung a song in sacrament meeting that I have ever heard, and is "too old" to join in the singing in Primary anymore really. That made this was a priceless treasure, especially given that he did it with conviction that told me he did indeed have a pure and cherished testimony of our Savior, even if he wasn't fully aware of it yet. Naturally I started crying and commented to him how much I treasured it, which means he will probably won't ever do it again. But I can live with that if I have to, I had that one priceless and cherished moment in time when he did, meaningfully.
It has been 3 years pretty much since I made consistent posts on here and so much has happened in that time, so incredibly much I can't fully catch you up on all of it here. Both of my boys, L.J. and Neil, were diagnosed a little over 2 years ago with Asperger's Syndrome. This is a neurological disorder that is part of the Autism Spectrum of disorders. I have in the past year felt a great loss for the person I was able to be before this diagnosis, the person I read still in the previous Power of 52 posts. This is largely due to the person I have to be in order to meet their needs as best I can. It has been 3 years of growing up into a more confident, vocal, and knowledgeable advocate for my children. Growth that I needed, I know, in order to become the person my Heavenly Father would have me be. But it has been anything but easy growth, and continues to be quite a large challenge in my life, continually begging me to grow more and take on things outside my comfort zone. I sense even larger change in the works as today we are having Courtney evaluated for Aspergers as well. I know already that I will revisit the mourning period I had when the boys were diagnosed, I just hope that it will be made easier having gone through it before. On top of this enormous change, we were surprised with a 5th child since I last consistently posted. Marlana is such a blessing in our home and hearts and the Lord knew what he did in sending her here to help us in our journey. I am very relieved to say that I know neither her or Analise have Aspergers or seemingly anything else and this brings me comfort for their futures...which will still have their share of challenges, but thank goodness they won't have this one. It is amazing to me the number of transitions that we go through in life now that I know they are as big challenge as they are for my children. But just as with anything else we take them one step at a time and one moment at a time and so far we are making it. I may be a more battle weary person that I used to be, but I am better for having fought the battles and persevered.
8 years ago





